tirsdag den 21. november 2017

Daydreaming - Letting Go Of The Light | Dagdrømme - Give Slip På Lyset


I must admit that I am utterly terrified from the moment you really start to notice the days being colder, the mornings darker and the afternoons shorter. Letting go of the light days, going from sixteen hours of light to just about six, scares the hell out of me. Light gives a comfort nothing else can. It literally brightens your path! I often wish that I could live more south, not only due to the much warmer weather, but mostly because of the longer days. The only thing that really cheers me up when autumn begins until winter ends is the holidays. I love Christmas since it's one shape of light I see in darker times. 
Don't get me wrong when I say that I hate school in these months. I love my classmates and daily routine, but I so often wish that school was after four in the afternoon or before ten in morning so I still had the opportunity to enjoy the few light hours I have in a day. So right now I hate my routine and hate that I can't change it.
I feel stressed more often in these months which for me unfortunately means stomachaches and sickness. That, of course, doesn't really cheer me up either. The stress I can't really blame on the darkness only; work, Christmas gifts, the fact that I'm soon entering the last half year of school and of course I also have the biggest assignment of my entire high school right now. 
On top of that I've had a lot of emotional confusions lately, not any that I feel I should complain about but some that really takes up my mind. 
Of course it won't help that I constantly go around and seem negative about everything around me which is why I say that I love Christmas. Even though I've been working my entire Christmas vacation the past two years (and probably will this year as well) then I love how the feeling of Christmas cheers me up. It's what I hang on to right now, it's my comfort, my safe place when feeling down.
I won't lie, but there is probably somebody I hang on to right now as well...

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Jeg må indrømme, at jeg er aldeles skrækslagen fra det tidspunkt hvor man virkelig lægger mærke til at dagene er koldere, morgenerne mørkere og aftenerne kortere. Det at give slip på lyset, gå fra seksten timers lys til omkring seks, skræmmer mig ad helvedes til. Lys giver en komfort intet andet kan. Det i bogstaveligste forstand lyser din vej op! Jeg ønsker ofte, at jeg boede mere syd på, ikke kun på grund af det meget varmere vejr, men mest grundet de lange dage. Det eneste som virkelig opmuntrer mig når efteråret begynder og indtil vinteren slutter er helligdagene. Jeg elsker Jul, da det er en form for lys jeg ser i mørkere tider.
Misforstå mig ikke når jeg siger at jeg hader skole i de her måneder. Jeg elsker mine klassekammerater og daglige rutine, men jeg ønsker så ofte at skole var efter fire om aftenen eller før ti om morgenen, så jeg stadig havde muligheden for at nyde de få timers lys der er i løbet af en dag. Så lige nu hader jeg min rutine, og hader at jeg ikke kan ændre den.
Jeg føler mig ofte meget mere stresset i det her måneder, hvilket for mig uheldigvis betyder mavepine og sygdom. Det hjælper selvfølgelig heller ikke til at opmuntre mig. Stressen kan jeg ikke rigtigt bebrejde mørket for udelukkende; arbejde, julegaver, det faktum at jeg snart går ind i det sidste halve år af min skole, og selvfølgelig har jeg også den største opgave jeg kommer til at skrive i hele min gymnasietid lige nu.
Oven på det har jeg været følsesmæssigt meget forvirret på det seneste, ikke at jeg føler jeg har retten til at klage over det, det fylder bare mit hoved meget.
Selvfølgelig hjælper det ikke at jeg konstant går rundt og er negativ over alting omkring mig, hvilket er hvorfor jeg siger, at jeg elsker julen. Selvom jeg har arbejdet hele juleferien væk de sidste to år (og nok også kommer til i år), så elsker jeg den følelse julen giver og opmuntrer mig med. Det er hvad jeg hænger fast på nu her, det er en komfort for mig, et sikkert sted hvis jeg føler mig nede.
Jeg vil ikke lyve, men det er nok også nogen som jeg hænger fast på nu her...

2 kommentarer:

  1. I too dread the cold of winter and miss the longer days of summer.
    I hope you manage to worry less, overcome your emotional confusions and stress and enjoy the holidays. Life goes by very fast, and you have my best wishes for enjoying what you can of it. I hope you find nice ways for brightness in your path and enjoy ther sunlight when Spring returns!
    The off-shoulder blue dress you wore in the photos looks very pretty being worn by you - I love the photos!

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    1. Aaarh, thank you so much love, I wish you the best as well!

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